Night time escapades

Why is night, the time when one must rejuvenate and get some sleep, the easiest time to sit up for hours and just think? And I mean think. Hard. About things that could be qualified as random or nonsensical. I constantly fall victim to my brains mysterious powers of moving about wildly at night. And it really only happens when I'm alone, lying in my bed, harmlessly. Stupid brain. No pun intended. Also, I watched "When Harry met Sally" tonight. It was excellent; a really accurate description of what I think intimate relationships should be based off of. Friendship :)

I just wish....

that everyone would love everyone.
if someone does something good for you, do something twice as good for them.
that life was a bit more fair to other countries.
that poverty/war didn't exist.
that everyone would not stress over petty things.
that everyone would cheer up their neighbor.
that chocolate did not contain any calories.
watching movies burned as much calories as exercising.
people didn't naturally try and pre determine things; life is unexpected and unpredictable, it just comes at you like a curve ball. stop trying to control it, give it up to God.
that my friends wouldn't ever be sad.
that I could fly
that this blog was more interesting
that the beetles were playing live in my room right now
and that I can understand the meaning of life. (eventually).

And the rambling session is over! Now it is time for bed. I will attempt to at least dream about flying, since gravity is such a harsh limitation of this world.

I had fun with this new app I found called "instagram". It was free. Basically it has a ton of cool effects for your pictures, and it makes taking them a lot more fun and random.

Never good enough, or too good.

Hello! Here's my thought of the hour: A really common excuse for relationships not working out is that the man or woman just "wasn't my type" or "didn't meet my expectations". But what about when someone exceeds your expectations? We would feel insecure and inferior, there for we wouldn't be able to sustain a healthy relationship easily. Potentially we could start to idolize that person, or hold them up on too high of a pedestal. So if they do make a mistake, it seems catastrophic. Why are relationships so complicated? Because if they were simple, we'd be bored too easily. People need variety, but also stability. People want so much out of a person, but only need so little. If you are wondering why I'm being so inquisitive, what has sparked these questions, I DON'T REALLY KNOW. Honestly I don't understand half the stuff that goes on in my brain. (Which is a bit sad considering only 10% of our brains are active in the first place)

Growing up or growing down...?

As teenagers venture into their freshman year in college excited and nervous for their soon to be adulthood to appear more noticeable and concrete, they get so caught up in the idea of "growing up". The idea of leaving your past life behind when you leave for college is so common, but I was drinking coffee and reading bad college letters when I had a thought. Independence is a huge aspect of going away for college. And a big chunk of the time, we abuse that independence. When we leave for our freshman year, are we not also losing a big part of ourselves? Our childlike innocence that we naturally were given early in our lives? Or have we already lost it in the chaos and disarray of high school? I want to hold onto at least a fraction of my "innocence", so that I won't feel overwhelmed or unable to handle certain things in college because I can't understand why I'm doing it. The controversy in this, however, is that children will simply believe what they are told which is typically seen as a negative thing for the youthful generation. Obviously I don't mean I want to be brain washed or anything. I am simply speaking in terms of keeping strong in my faith, my relationship with my family, and educational reasons. I probably should have made that more clear in the beginning for I think I even confused myself.

Born in the wrong generation?

Sometimes I find myself subconsciously online looking at music, movies, fashions and people from the 60's, 70's, 80's and 90's. What is wrong with my own lifetime?? Maybe I am just so accustomed to the things of this age that I want to explore other ideas, but I'm practically just going in a circle since those concepts are outlived already anyway. But for some reason, older music especially, seems so much more creative and authentic than the music of this generation. I listen to music that my parents listened to in Junior High. I despise the crap that is currently on the radio (with the exception of songs from 94.7 fm). And I know I'm not alone in this. Don't get me wrong, obviously there's been a surplus of technology that has enabled people to create all different sorts of music and fashions and special effects in movies, but my eye is just old fashioned I guess because I find it much easier to appreciate things from previous years.

Spontaneous beach day trip

Yesterday, me and a group of 4 other friends decided to drive out to Manzanita, despite the obvious downpour of rain. I can't really put it into words, but there's something about a rambunctious group of teenagers being able to have loads of fun at the Oregon coast with awful weather. I couldn't be happier with who I am growing close to nowadays. These people truly have a heart for others and no matter what, they are always there for each other through the challenges that life presents to us every day. This picture is of me and my friend Jessie, taken by my other friend AJ. I have known J wall now for around 5 or 6 years, crazy how time flies. The Oregon Coast is definitely one of my favorite places to go with friends.

Introduction to Anna's thought process

I am completely new to this blogging thing, but I find myself always looking through other peoples blogs, so I decided to create one of my own.  I also think that blogging is really beneficial practice for writing, expressing personal thoughts/ideas, creativity, gaining new perspectives and more.  Today I am posting mainly to share that I am officially in a transitioning phase from an ignorant aspiring athlete to a very motivated and inspired prospective college student.  This time in my life is crucial in discovering interests unique to my personality instead of blending in with the rest of my high school.  I have realized that, although everyone goes through this type of adolescent phase of life, each individual's experience is completely different from the next person.  I am excited yet nervous for my future outside of the suffocating cage that high school is, and ready to become encompassed by this world and all its offerings.