Sunday, August 28, 2011

Happy Sunday :)

I hope everyone is enjoying this sunny weather!
I thought this song was very beautiful and since I couldn't find the lyrics online I just listened to it and wrote down a few quick lines that stuck out to me.

Marvel-Strangers & Pilgrims

I believe, I believe, and you marvel over me, maker of the galaxy, marveling.
Overcome,
Overcome, all my enemies are
Overrun.
I believe, I believe, and you marvel over me, maker of the galaxy, marveling.
A Father to the fatherless, defender of the wilderness you rescued my soul, you lifted your own.

I beleive, I believe, and you marvel over me, maker of the galaxy, marveling.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

One of the most beautiful songs.

This song was on a free CD I picked up at my church in downtown Portland, Solid Rock. Music truly has an amazing impact on my mood and overall mindset. Thank you Solid Rock for your generosity!

SONG-OVERDUE
ARTIST-STRANGERS & PILGRIMS
ALBUM-SAINTS




I can't seem to find the lyrics but buy the album!!! IT IS AMAZING I promise it won't let you down if you are in need of some good, deep, heart felt worship music.

My internet hasn't been working!

So that is why I have been lacking in the blogging realm. But I promise I have not run out of things to say, I am just full of words practically at all times. (this could be good, or bad, depending on your perspective) Anyway, I guess I have been thinking a lot about friends and relationships, basically what I've learned this summer. So here's my quick say. (hehe quick always means sort of long when I say it)

Through out our lives, certain people make substantial impacts on us during a specific time or phase, then they more than likely become distant and then disappear form our lives completely. (At least that’s been the pattern in my life.) People who you thought you’d be close to forever even sometimes fade from our every day routines. But when someone stays apparent in your life, when your bond is strong enough to last years and years to come, that’s when you know your relationship is special. All my middle and high school life I have felt as if I transition from group to group seasonally. We have fun doing surface level things, but nothing I’d remember in twenty years as beneficial and significant. Due to the unstable group of friends I possessed, I myself became insecure and lacked balance. One of the pastors at the church I attend (who also stands as my role model) once said, “Bad company creates bad character”, which I have learned, the hard way, to be true. I consider myself a strong, open minded and fun human being all around, but when I surrounded myself with people who didn’t share my opinions or ideas or general morals, my assets became foggy and hidden. No longer was I as sure of myself as I had been even in primary school. However as time went on, and I experienced many different people who came and went in my life, I learned a very important life lesson. Instead of surrounding myself with people that I wanted to like me, I needed to surround myself with the ones who I wanted to be better for. And by better, I mean more loving, caring, respectful, mindful, purposeful, spiritual, intellectual, and overall just a well rounded person. I needed to surround myself with people who I genuinely cared about through out all parts of the year, instead of on occasion when it was convenient for us. Friends need to be people who you don’t feel awkward or intimidated around. I have learned that friends care for you no matter how broken or disheveled you may be at times. If they get the pleasure to be friends with you at your best, then they sure as hell need to be able to handle you at your worst. After all, God made us to be in relationships with people, and that means through the bad times and the good. :)

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Long Live Life

Hello friends. The other day my friend deciphered the meaning behind these song lyrics, and I discovered that this song became a lot better once I truly understood it. The meaning may seem obvious, but when a song becomes popular to everyone the deeper meaning within it usually gets muted behind loud people "singing" (or screeching) the lyrics. I Thought it was a very inspirational song and that everyone could benefit from appreciating the quality.

Coldplay-Viva La Vida

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh, who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a-ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

late Wednesday night thought: I'm gonna smile because I deserve to.

Everyone has hardships in their lives-it's just how things work. The turmoil we go through in our life seems so devastating at the time of its occurrence, but then as time progresses we allow the turmoil to become less important to us. Personally, I have learned, (or at least am in the process of trying to accept) that shoving things to the back of my mind and "forgetting" about them does NOT in fact make the issues go away! I know, I'm basically the next Einstein. This seems incredibly obvious, but it has taken me all of junior high and 3 years of high school to begin to wrap my brain around that statement. It is SO easy, SOOOO easy to pretend things didn't actually happen or belittle their importance or impact in our lives. But I tell you now my dear friends: FACE YOUR PROBLEMS, DEAL WITH YOUR INSECURITIES, COMMUNICATE HOW YOU FEEL. We get strong reactions for a reason. What's their point or sense if we are supposed to just ignore them? It makes me sick at night. It's funny, just like when I eat something nasty or undercooked, I have a very physical reaction when I am trying to keep my problems hidden. That makes it very clear to me that it's just not right. I thank God every day that I have friends who I can share my thoughts and feelings with. But it's still a struggle to fully accept and deal with my issues, and I'm sure you can relate. But I promise you, whatever you are dealing with, it too shall pass. And I have full faith and trust in my God that through him I can accomplish wonders, things beyond my imagination. And I can accomplish all that despite my troubles.

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

Hope prevails my friends. Always. To end on a pleasant note, this verse always helps me end my day with a smile on my face.

Psalm 18:2
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.




Sunday, August 14, 2011

Seattle Bound! (again)




Tomorrow I get to spend the day with two of my great friends in the one and only Seattle! We are picking up my sister who has been in Europe the entire summer exploring and being adventurous. I admire her a lot. Seattle is my second favorite city in the entire world so far, next to Portland :) Not sure why but it always makes me feel rejuvenated and inspired seeing all the cool hand-made trinkets at Pikes Place. This post was pretty empty but I just thought I'd share, after all this is my blog. Goodbye :)

MATTHEW22:37-39

“Love the Lord your God with all of your heart, with all of your mind, and with all of your soul....You shall love thy neighbor as thyself”.



To me, that’s the strongest, most important part of Christianity. It is the basis of what I stand for and believe in.

Unlike other earthly leaders, anarchists, kings, dictators, monarchs, capitalists, republicans or democrats, God doesn’t just say “honor me,” and stop there. He makes it a point to say HONOR YOUR NEIGHBOR AS YOURSELF. That statement is fully loaded with ideas. We have such a caring and loving God, unlike any ruler of this past or present world. He loves us, unconditionally. And by that I mean he loves us no matter what, expecting nothing in return. Jesus’s death burial and resurrection gives us HOPE for our future, and knowledge that what we do on this earth does not just disintegrate when our bodies sink into the earth. What we do now, matters. We must try with every fiber in our being to mirror this world with what God’s kingdom will look like. If we don’t, then all the worldly tragedies such as poverty, famine, abuse, disease, cruelty, greediness and murder will keep on getting larger in supply. I believe a giant misconception of believers is that what we do now, doesn’t really “count” or “matter” because were destined to be with God in his kingdom. Really? Then what’s the point in life? Life is not a mistake. God intended us to live on this Earth and love each other and ourself. He WANTED us to have emotions and relationships. He wanted to be in a relationship with us, here on Earth. Sadly, words are limited, and lots of information gets misconstrued in translation or simply in trying to get out an idea. Luckily we have the Bible and prayer to dig deeper in our own understanding of what it means to “follow Jesus” and to love God. It’s OK to have questions and doubts. If we simply agreed with everything that other people believed in, our world would be an even larger ignorant mess than it is now. But I do recommend, from my own personal experiences and others that i’ve witnessed, to at least be open to the good news of the Lord if you have never been exposed to this kind of thinking or idea before. You won’t regret it.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

The unequal grounds

JUST TO CLARIFY: This is not an online diary. I just sometimes have things I'd like to say and don't wanna pester my friends about them, so I pester you.

Today my extremely intellectual and insightful buddy Fritz brought up a very good discussion topic while enjoying a nice summer's breeze. Out of the 7 billion people in the world, we are such a small fraction. We live in a tiny section of the world. And we are wealthier than the majority of the world. We have practically unlimited access to food, water, shelter, health facilities, entertainment, nice nature walks, lakes, our friends, family, music; the list goes on. My point is, people in most parts of Africa haven't even stepped foot into a place like where we live. They've never seen a movie, never eaten popcorn while laughing at its pathetic stupidity. Why is the world so insanely disproportional and unequal? Better question; what can WE do to equal it out. One person won't change the fact that hundreds of thousands of people are starving in Africa, or that a bunch of rebels in Europe are burning down buildings and causing riots. But in large numbers, people are powerful. This is a democracy, we have the responsibility (and thank God we do) to make a difference and BE the change. Now is a more crucial and important time than ever to take action and open your mind to the possibility of helping make a critical change to these people's lives who are in desperate need.

I know that recently all I've been talking about is these issues in Africa and the corrupted world we live in, but I completely and totally have faith in our God and our people. With God's amazing grace, we can do this. It doesn't matter our age, location or social status. Just start small, but please, something needs to be done about these crazy epidemics and it involves us.

WAYS TO GET INVOLVED THAT MY LITTLE BRAIN THOUGHT OF AT THE TOP OF MY HEAD:
-volunteer for places like Red Cross, Habitat for Humanity, Mercy Cor, Peace Cor, OFA, etc.
-send money for Africa to the reliable resources on cbs.com to validate it doesn't accidentally get sent to terrorists
-get educated and be a leader
-be progressive, but not foolish

This post was very unorganized and random; my apologies

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

GIANT realization/reality check

I know that we hear about this stuff all the time through the news, the paper, our parents, teachers, ads, billboards, or whatever it may be, but it's time to take action. Today, I was driving home from a movie with my close friend Haley, and a giant realization smacked us over the heads. Americans indulge in a disgusting amount of food, cloths, jewelry, shoes, watches, tvs, appliances, technology or whatever we desire. Haley brought up a good point. Imagine a 1.99 app on an itouch. A game you'll probably play for a week, maybe 2, maybe a month if it's good. That money could be donated towards the aid to help the people in Africa out of their poverty stricken state. I know this money wouldn't make a difference if only one person donated, but can you imagine if an entire mass of people were selfless for a day? Instead of buying that new pair of designer jeans, put that money to use by researching a trustworthy business that sends the money over to aids that help build shelters or deliver food for these desperate people. Also, in a perfect world all the crime ridden activities along with famine, pollution, inflation, corruption and what not would not exist or at least exist in a lot smaller amount because people would just love on one another. Just a thought. I think a lot.

Gorgeous Day

As you all know, today in Portland Oregon was absolutely gorgeous. I started it out by going to Besaw's on NW 23rd and Thurman St. with Haley and Mia. I gotta say, it was the best breakfast I have had in quite some time. (I ordered the breakfast sandwich and I HIGHLY recommend it.) Then later at home I did college research and started essays. There's nothing weirder than starting college essays. I still feel like I belong in Mrs. Case's 5th grade health class learning about womanly products for the first time. Anyway, after that I worked out for around 3 hours. I guess you can say I'm pretty much running off of ib profin right now. Then I watched a free online lifetime version of J.K Rowling's life; It was very inspiring and I'm so glad I stumbled upon it. FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS; even if you think they aren't "practical". You won't be happy or succeed in something that you don't truly want to do. I hope my generation doesn't succumb to the lie that the media engulfs us with. The lie that says you must make a ton of money to be able to achieve happiness; and that money can lead you to your "dreams". I guess there's a tint of truth in that last statement; if your dream is to buy a large boat and go sailing for a year, money could be quite helpful. However in my opinion there's nothing more satisfying than doing something or achieving some goal for purposes other than money. For instance, being apart of Younglife has made me realize how many amazing people that God has inspired to help teenagers. They devote all of there time to kids like us FOR FREE, because it's something they truly believe in. One day I hope to do something along those lines.

Thanks for listening to my random spiel on my day and thoughts. :)

Quotes to live by

Every once in a while a few inspirational/motivational sayings, lyrics or quotes can really help boost someones mood. Here are some of my favorite quotes from a collection of sources, hope it cheers you up!

Grace is love that seeks you out when you have nothing to give in return. Grace is love coming at you that has nothing to do with you. Grace is being loved when you are unlovable.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and he will make your paths straight.

Be the change you want to see in the world.

Treat others how you want to be treated.

You'll lose 100% of the shots you don't take.

Knowledge is limited, Imagination knows no boundaries.

Give thanks for what you are know, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow.

I'm really sorry these aren't cited :/ I wrote them down on a previous date and I guess I didn't give the writers credit. I'll add more later and maybe even create some of my own :) Goodbye!
ALSO I am fully aware these are extremely cliche and corny. They are also very true, so just bare with me.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Ponder that

Love is always bestowed as a gift--freely, willingly, and with out expectation. We don't love to be loved; we love to love -Leo Buscaglia

Inspired

Lately I have been feeling an immense about of blessings from every direction of my life. I got to go BACK to the most beautiful place on earth with some of the most amazing people I have ever met. My grandma got surgery for breast cancer and came out CANCER FREE. My friends are.... I don't even have words for them. They are there for me no matter what and accept me for who I am, and I love them so much. My family is adoring and cares so much about me. The college search is going well and I feel extremely guided in the right direction. I feel a strong connection with God and really want to learn more about theology so I can be one step closer in fully understanding the history of the bible. I just feel like things are slowly falling into place, and couldn't be more thankful.

But then, the world is not about Anna Barlow. It consists of thousands of people, and a large portion of them are starving or living in severe poverty. I strongly believe that it is our duty as citizens of America to help these countries in any reasonable way we can. Instead of indulging in selfish pleasures, maybe we should adopt a child from Somalia or another desperate country. Instead of buying a new pair of jeans to add to the 10 already in our closet, send that money to an organization who helps aid or send food/water to these places. John Mark's talk about life and the mindset we have while living really made me think clearly about how self-obsessed we truly are as Americans. I hope that everyone believes in themselves enough to make a difference, ANY small donation or prayer for those in need helps. BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD :)

To find out ways to donate, go here:
http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/blogpost/post/somalia-suffering-from-famine-how-you-can-help/2011/07/20/gIQAGdQ6PI_blog.html

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Some pictures from Malibu





Sweet Baby Edith




My beautiful niece Edith was welcomed into the world about a month ago. Already she is growing rapidly and looking more and more like Gillian and Jack each day. I am such a proud Auntie.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Back from Malibu

I had the opportunity to be a junior leader at Malibu Younglife camp in Canada this past week! God is so amazing, there's no doubt in my mind that the relationships I formed there will last me for a very long time. Words can't express how amazing the camp was! I will upload a few pictures later. Here is a song from the Musician who was there to play his wonderful music for us all week. His name is Jonah Werner, and he is very talented. I Highly recommend you listen to him.

HURRICANE-
What is lonely except a name?
It's clothed in emptiness and garbed in shame
What is sorrow except a game we play
What are lives except the truth that we are broken from our childhood
And that we are restless from our youth
Who is able to bring hope to this lonely soul?
Is it God, is it you, is it me?
Is it a little bit of all three, but I don't know
I can only tell you what I've heard
I've heard it takes something bigger and it's scarcely seen
And how do you accept something like that?
But when you do this lonely will suddenly mean nothing,
And nothing means everything, And what is God except everything
And in everything just the same,
For what is lonely except a word I made up for myself
What is lonely except a word?
What is lonely except... A name.